I bought none of those things (I do already have the NARS concealer but I'm too lazy to use it every day), and instead tried this Anastasia eyeshadow palette during the private shopping time we got before the store opened (since I didn't wear any eyeshadow to the class), and ended up buying it. Then when I got home and was putting the makeup sitting on my bathroom counter all away, I realized I already own a Makeup Revolution palette that has most of the same colors. Note to self: if you'd stop buying makeup this would stop happening! Anyway, today I am wearing orange shadow with a turquoise shadow as a liner because I felt like being weird today but it is not as bright as it sounds. It could be brighter. I will have to experiment.
I also dyed my hair last night to a shade called "chrome plum", which looked cool brown with plum tones on the box, but looks mostly red on me.
Power Rangers: UNEXPECTEDLY GREAT. I might need to write fic? Once I feel like I can write again, and after I finish my F5k assignment and finish writing through nearly the entire roster of my hockey team. (Who lost yesterday but A. saw Adam Pardy in the hall so we know he's alive, and then we realized where he and his girlfriend were sitting, waaaay up in the 400s.)
ETA: I was pondering finally getting to Logan after work but I'm glad I looked at my calendar because they're coming to clean the dryer vent today. #adulthood
Fanfic is pretty similar but also really fundamentally different from original fiction. It’s similar in that you’re writing about things using words, but the way you write about them is completely different because you’re using characters and a world that has already been established; you have to make your fanfic fit into that world, or be a plausible offshoot, or you should just write original fic. With original fiction, you’re starting with a blank page in every sense of the word, even though you can obviously draw inspiration and ideas and information from the world around you. And you’re also writing to a completely different audience; generally speaking, people who like the already created world and who want to read more.
"Oh, can I watch?" she said. And Dympna, who never got her hands dirty, could nevertheless name every cylinder and valve that was lying on the floor, and let Maddie have a go painting the new fabric (over the fuselage she'd kicked in) with a mess of plastic goo called "dope" which smelled like pickled onions. After an hour had gone by and Maddie was still there asking what all the parts of the plane were for and what they were called, the mechanics gave her a wire brush and let her help.
Maddie said she always felt very safe, after that, flying in Dympna's Puss Moth, because she had helped to put its engine back together herself.
Code Name Verity, Elizabeth Wein
Writing starts with reading. We learn by example, by reading something and thinking, hey, I could do that - this is why a lot of new writers end up writing really derivative stuff at first; they're trying to imitate something great they read. Some new writers go straight to fanfiction, which is why there's a lot of wish-fulfillment-y self-insert fanfiction out there to go along with all the wish-fulfillment-y self-insert original fiction. Early efforts at fanfiction are often pretty simple too. This is the kind of stuff that goes viral to be mocked around the internet - an authorial self-insert goes to Hogwarts and ends up with everyone falling in love with her, etc. Simple=/= bad, by the way - I think this kind of fanfic can be great fun and well-written, and even if it's not what I personally want to read, someone had a lot of fun writing it, which is good - but that's a topic for another time. At some point, the new writer starts having more and new ideas of their own, and the rest is history.
Anyway, most fanfiction goes a bit deeper than the stereotypical Mary Sue fic and starts deconstructing the canon world. Modern day alternate universes, even, the "what if the characters of Harry Potter were teenages who worked in a coffee shop" type stories are doing this - they ask things like: what character traits are intrinsic? What are a result of circumstances? How would things be different or the same with these characters in different circumstances? These are the questions that I think most fanfiction attempts to answer, whether or not the particular fic does it well. Essentially, it's literary analysis but way more fun. By writing fanfiction, you can take apart a story, a world, a character, and put them back together. Maybe even put them back together better! This helps with writing in a few ways. First, you learn why authors decide to write things in the way they do, and second, you learn why you write things in the way you do. You learn from where you disagree with the authors, where you think the writing is weak, what you would do differently.
You can learn all this from original fiction too, but I myself think that if you're going to learn how to build something, first you should learn to take apart a functional model and see how it works. As much as I hate the training wheels type metaphors for fanfiction, I do think that in this way it can be like a sandbox; you get to mess around at will and get better at writing while writing stories about Hermione being awesome.
Fan fiction is a way of the culture repairing the damage done in a system where contemporary myths are owned by corporations instead of by the folk.Just kidding, that's not actually what he said, it's a misattribution. Anyway, someone said it, and I completely agree. There's a view of stories, books, etc., these days - that they belong to someone who owns the rights, to Disney, to the writer themselves. Legally, that's entirely true, and also plagiarism is bad. But on another level it's just completely off base of the point of telling stories. Stories change, get retold, misinterpreted, and are rewritten all the time. As they should be; a story is a living thing, like language. And as with language, the only unchanging stories are dead ones.
One tends to think of it as written by total fanboys and fangirls as a kind of worshipful act, but a lot of times you’ll read these stories and it’ll be like ‘What if Star Trek had an openly gay character on the bridge?’ And of course the point is that they don’t, and they wouldn’t, because they don’t have the balls, or they are beholden to their advertisers, or whatever. There’s a powerful critique, almost punk-like anger, being expressed there—which I find fascinating and interesting and cool.”
It's not all about my new age-y feelings on what a story means; fanfiction is also a way of challenging the dominant culture, a culture that prioritizes the narratives of white, cisgender, heterosexual men above all others. Is fandom activism? No. But it can overlap with activism. It can challenge assumptions and start a dialogue. And a lot of people get very upset about people writing straight characters in gay relationships, imagining characters as a different race than their canon one, writing about if a cisgender character were actually trans. There's a feeling of "get your icky hands off my characters" about this kind of distress, like those of us who belong to marginalized groups should just be happy with what we get. And fanfiction challenges that. And it challenges the "image" of characters like, for example, Captain Kirk as a straight man. Fanfiction asks: what if this man, who is brave, and strong, and smart, and a cultural icon, was actually gay? What if gay characters didn't just get assigned to the role of sassy friends, villains, and women who get killed before their time? And what if straight men could identify with and admire a gay character without the world ending?
Fanfiction is fulfilling a fundamental need that people have: to see themselves in media, as whole people, and maybe even with a happy ending or two.
No writing is wasted. Did you know that sourdough from San Francisco is leavened partly by a bacteria called lactobacillus sanfrancisensis? It is native to the soil there, and does not do well elsewhere. But any kitchen can become an ecosystem. If you bake a lot, your kitchen will become a happy home to wild yeasts, and all your bread will taste better. Even a failed loaf is not wasted. Likewise, cheese makers wash the dairy floor with whey. Tomato gardeners compost with rotten tomatoes. No writing is wasted: the words you can't put in your book can wash the floor, live in the soil, lurk around in the air. They will make the next words better.
Ending on a happier note than my eternal rage about every lesbian character ever getting brutally killed off, writing is good! Writing more can only help you get better, so keep doing it. And maybe check out fandom, if you have the time. You might find something you like.
Also got this Marc Jacobs highlighter that I am so far unsure about. But! I am going to a contouring/highlighting class with A. this Sunday at the semi-local Sephora so hopefully I will figure it out. I mixed a tiny drop into my foundation this morning and my foundation doesn't look any different BUT I probably didn't use enough to make a difference. And finally, this eye cream which I have NO idea why I ordered but after two uses I'm digging it. (I guess I am almost 36 and should probably use an eye cream. I GUESS.)
Email in the police inbox: Hello, I'm not sure of the laws involving bake sales or the permits this group might have but I don't see how raising the price for men is at all okay just because their men. That's flat out the definition of sexist. Please let me know how/if this is okay.
The bake sale in question is charging women 75 cents an item and men $1 specifically to highlight the gender wage gap. This person emailing... wtaf. Also this is not a police matter. Sometimes I just shake my head at the number of things I have to tell people "that's not a police matter".
Also today at P-side - email went out saying former wrestling coach had died (he was hit by a car last week, very sad, a really nice guy). Three hours later, another email: not dead. I know it's morbid humor but it's so P-side. The only way it could have been more P-side is if they'd retracted it by using the actual "so-and-so would like to recall this email" thing.
ETA: It got more even P-side - the incorrect email and the retraction were both scrubbed from everyone's inboxes, LOL.
I have not written anything since the couple hundred words I managed before my panic attack adventure two Saturdays ago, and this makes me :( - but I also can barely focus enough to read, uuuuuuuuugh. I want to do things! Seriously though, this needs to end because I need to write at least SOME of my fandom5k story before the mandatory check-in at the beginning of April. (I also, um, sort of want to write two of the prompts? Because I have lost my mind.)
While ill last week I ordered from Sephora because it was double cash back from ebates and I only remember two of the things I ordered so it will be a surprise!!!!! When I open the box tonight it will be like presents. That I paid for.
Here are a couple pictures of kitties being good adopted babies. Goopy hardly left my side this last week.
I also wanted to post a poem but I'm too lazy to pick one out, but I will post at least one sometime in the next month.
DD and I are rewatching NiF two episodes a week, which we decided on because we needed a fixed number to stop ourselves from speeding through it in time we don't have. On the one hand it's something I now look forward to every week and it's great to rewatch it together, but on the other hand there's fic I want to edit or write for which I need to rewatch later episodes and I don't want to skip ahead. Ah well, better late than never. In the meantime I have so many feelings about all the NiF characters that I seem to be able to only express nonverbally, especially about Jingyan and Liyang who are so good and deserve so much better and just *flails*
Not that I have too much drive to write right now anyway. Hopefully next week? I try to at least keep up with commenting on fic I read during the day in the evenings, because it feels too awkward to visit the Archive at work and typing on my phone is annoying.
My head is full of random stuff. Eh, could be worse, at least most of it is not negative random stuff. Stuff like plans to finally try out the "Lord of the Rings" boardgame I got for cheap over a year ago this weekend, or museums, or calendar confusion, or the surprisingly annoying decision what to wear each morning. Not that the company has a strict dress code but still. I think I want to have more necklaces. It's on my list of things to buy with my paychecks, somewhere after "new headphones" because my current ones only work intermittently, and somewhere before "new laptop" because I know me and it'll take me ages to finally decide on a new model. My current one lasted almost eight years even though I didn't treat it very well, I'm attached (and lazy.)
I'm so busy watching Critical Role that even though I made notes for every episode I'm not in the mood to actually post about it, because I could be watching more episodes instead.
The Buffalo Beauts won the NWHL's Isobel Cup with a 3-2 win over the Boston Pride, a huge upset. Wow. I was already amazed (and sad) that they'd managed to knock out the Rivs. At least the Riveters managed to defeat the until then undefeated Boston Pride in the last game of the regular season.
Btw, the playoff format was ridiculous. You play over a dozen games during the regular season and then have elimination game playoffs, with four teams? Either give the trophy to the team with the most points in the regular season (which they probably don't want to do because playoffs seem to be traditional in North American sports), or have at least a best-of-three format. Like this all you need is a hot goalie, which is exactly what the Beauts had in Brianne McLaughlin. 56 saves, wow. (And iirc the Beauts had 13 shots total!) I read that they shortened it to accommodate the schedule for the World Championships, but they really should have thought of that earlier.
The Canadiennes won the CWHL's Clarkson Cup, but I know comparatively very little about the CWHL.
In NHL news, the Pens finally played another afternoon game that I could watch live, and this time they even won! I almost forgot about it and missed the first period. DD and I even got our third flatmate, who doesn't know anything about hockey, to watch for a few minutes. No goals during that time though, and I don't know how much she liked it. There'll be more chances.
4-0 against Florida, Sid with a hat trick, beautiful. Guentzel-Crosby-Sheary is such an amazing line. Probably this year's version of HBK in the sense of "probably wouldn't have happened without injuries, let's take it as a silver lining." Speaking of injuries, it's ridiculous how many this team has. I'm sorry that Geno is out especially, because he still had a shot at the Art Ross, and I'm annoyed that it happened for such a stupid reason. Let other people block shots, Geno, especially during not-critical phases of games.
It's bad enough that I dragged out the humidifier at 2am this morning, and I completely forgot to cheat at my 750 words yesterday so there goes my streak. :( I wish I could say I have accomplished something being at home the last several days but the most I've done is watch one of Amazon's new pilots, Oasis - with Richard Madden from GoT (it's very Solaris meets Earth 2 maybe? I would watch more), and Doctor Strange, which for all the hoopla about special effects looked suuuuuper crappy on my tiny bedroom television.